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Beloved AD, What is this fire in the heart? How can I get free from this? - TS
Beloved TS,
The fire in your heart is the thirst of yours..
This thirst exists till real knowledge has not happened. I use word 'happened' intentionally because this 'true' knowledge is not attained.. it is not gathered.. it happens. It happens because it is not knowledge at all in the senses we generally refer this word to.
On a cloudy day we may feel sun doesn't exist but the fact is sun is already there and very much available. The dense cover of cloud is prohibiting sun to to become available to us.. happen to us. So someone is thirsty means the knowledge has not happened yet. The person may be knowledgeable.. very well informed.. but not yet wise.. not full of love and light. It is this 'happening' knowledge is what removes all thirsts, all darkness, all desires.. But till the time desires keep happening in the mind (btw desires happen only in mind..) there can be only fire in the heart. And till the time fire is there you keep running around.. trying to douse that through accumulation of ideas, information, people & things etc. in and around you. In your futile efforts you do and learn all sorts of crazy things, pursue different careers and passions you say are close to your heart.. And even after doing all that.. this fire stays ablaze.. albeit with much more intensely.
The fire in heart is.. the 'search' of mind.
If I word it more accurately spell 'search of mind' it will change the perspective itself and I shall be bound to say there is no search of mind.. the mind itself is "search". It is not that it is search of mind. Mind in itself is a directionless, confused, circular activity of a segment of consciousness and this aimless wandering is felt as 'longing' or 'search'. It is this restlessness which makes you feel uneasy and experience this 'fire in the heart'. The fire in the heart is merely an indicator of the fact that the mind still exists.
If you have followed science in your schooling.. you must have read about the Brownian motion. In gaseous and liquid phase of matter the atoms continue to wander here and there aimlessly. If a philosopher looks at this motion he will attach a wonderful theory to it. Fortunately a noble philosopher did not gazed upon this movement so far. Whenever a philosopher looks at this peculiar motion his postulate would something really interesting.. like... 'The endless haphazard movement indicates that atoms are searching for something!
But the fact is atom's aren't searching for anything.. they are restless due to heat energy and until the temperature of these atoms is not brought to absolute zero this motion shall continue. In the same way This continuous wandering, Brownian motion, restless motion of our mind indicates we have not reached the "Absolute" so far.
All the search of man is to attain the absolute. And this translates to dropping the mind. It should be the contradiction of highest degree that the whole gambit of activities in which mind ceaselessly engages is about attaining the state of complete rest... but that is the Truth!
This state of complete rest can never be attained by allowing the mind to jump from one idea to another, one object to other, one pleasure to other for the ideas are countless, objects are infinite. However it would be unfortunate if you thought it is impossible to put this mind to rest because there is meditation. Whichever way you are able to get to it.. you will have to do it if you wish to get rid of this burning in your heart. You will have to begin your journey.. sooner the better. No one can't guarantee that it will lead to 'attainment' yet only meditation is the way. In whatever way.. but when you attain that restfulness of mind, enlightenment happens. As the true 'self' gets revealed you know the 'bliss; for the first time.
So the ultimate search is about complete death of mind but its complete rest. Interestingly the search if not of the mind... the mind itself is search. Mind exists as a ropeway.. a bridge between you and the bliss. And desire and the fire is not something to be condemned for the desiring is divine aspect of mind. Yet these desires are the only barriers between real you (the atman.. your soul) and the ultimate soul (paramatman) and we need to use the bridge of mind to crossover.
In the force-field which exists between atman and parmatman this poor mind is continuously in a state of turmoil. Mind's freedom can happen only in its virtual death who who doesn't fear death? Mind too fears its death and thus continues to escape by engaging in the outer world.
When we become aware of this fact - we start moving in the right direction.We do not search for anything. We know that between the happening and current existence only mind is coming. So we just allow this mind to disappear. When zenith of awareness and absolute attentiveness is achieved at that very moment the mind disappears, the union happens!
The search is mind. The thirst is synonym to search. And thirst is the fire in your heart. So the question is not who is thirsty, the question should be what is thirst and how to quench it. My way is of Tantra - through Tattva Shakti Vigyaan. And frankly Tantra is not about telling you how to make love or how to kiss.. rather it is the path where your thirst itself is used as a prop to propel you towards the 'Absolute'. So don't wait till you are eaten up by this fire.. learn how to fulfill your dreams...plan for union with the param, the absolute so that the fire gets doused forever.
- Acharya Agyaatdarshan Anand Nath
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